Sing My Love

Verse Text: Romans 12:1 I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. 2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. ESV version

Recently, have been feeling kind of ‘out of it’ spiritually, I guess you could say. I don’t know why I can’t just ‘click’ back into it, feel full of the Spirit of God, feel like I’m on track. But I think I have found it now, in this verse that I have read so many times, and seem to have forgotten. I know that there are things that I have done in recent days/weeks that have been dishonoring to my Father, in heaven, and to all as well. I have not offered myself as a living sacrifice, therefore, I have not worshiped. I have sung songs, I have begged for God’s mercy, I have apologized, and I have now repented. Now I have to seek redemption, and seek his healing for the things that I messed up. For the spirit that I quieted by my actions and blatant disregard for God. It’s hard! I hate this feeling of separation from God. But I know that God does not mix with sin. I can’t have my cake and eat it too. The Spirit will not allow me to. I have come too far and have too much responsibility for spiritual matters. We all do. You do, I do. We are all responsible for our spiritual lives—for our spiritual acts of worship. I hope that this inspires you, as it has me, to think on your own sins against God and others, and think on and ask God what you need to do for repentance, to help you turn from your ways—to renew your mind. What is good, what is acceptable, and perfect is what we are to seek after. In our hearts, we should know what these things are. But if you’re like me, you’ve ignored them and said “it’ll be okay, I’ve bounced back before.” This time is has been harder to bounce back. I still love God. I still want this relationship to be repaired, but I am paying the price for the reparation, which I think is that distant feeling, and the patience and endurance that it takes to get back on the path when I’ve fallen off of it. Because I have been saved, and know that I am covered by the blood of Christ, and therefore reconciled to God, I know that there is hope. But sometimes it feels like taking the wrong path in a long distance race and having to back track when you were already so tired. Fortunately, we know that God will strengthen our faith, our Spirits, for the finishing of the race.

Lovexx

Lindsay