Psalm 61 and ministry is hard work.

I have prayed many things in the short span of ministry I have worked in. I have been struggling with the fear of being burnt out and the desire to work always to the end of myself for the kingdom of god. However, I feel like there is a disconnect in those two desires. I am no good to ministry if I continue as I am. I have prayed diligently and fervently about this very thing and the answer is this: you work to the best of your god given strength and ability and everything else needs to be addressed. I always wanted to work and do something that u alone could not do-- well, thanks god, the time has come. If I am to press on and not give up, as I feel like doing, I need God, and I need god to be the foundation of every day and moment. My cry is straight from psalm 61-"I call as my heart grows faint, lead me to the Rock that is higher than I. I feel like being laid flat, like even a few hours of energy is exhausting. I know this is not right. And so, I pray that the Rock of my salvation, in whom I place my trust, will guide me to diligence but also to discern the path I should take-- or rather the words I should speak to make what is wrong and disconnected, what is burning me out- right, connected, untouched by the flaming arrows of Satan but rather burning with the spirit and fire of god. I am thankful for people around me who love jesus and keep me focused on God and not programming.