I am singing my love all of the time, now, it seems. Every day kind of gets better and better, closer and closer.
I never even imagined that I would know love and care like I have with this wonderful man God has brought into my life. When I stop to think about how he shows his love to and for me, I feel like I love very inadequately! However, I see so clearly the example that Paul talked about in several of his letters to churches about how husbands should love their wives has Christ loves the church, and how wives should "submit" to, or serve their husbands. Everything about Matt makes me want to work with and serve him, take care of him, and be better than everyone else at everything when it comes to him. He desires to care for me and protect me, and actually wants to spend quality time with me. I've never seen anyone but my own parents be so concerned about my well-being and focusing on loving me. I'm not sure how he does it, but if I needed to receive love in every single one of the "love languages", Matt would succeed in showing me love in each of them. I won't go into all of the specific examples of how he loves, but really folks, I'm in awe.
What is even more striking to me is that for as much love as I am filled with at the thought and presence of my fiance, I am even more filled with the One who created us both and brought us together. Truly, despite everything that happens in this life, the trials, tribulations, suffering, heart-break, loneliness, loss, brokenness, there is a God who loves me and wraps me in his arms constantly. I am taught, and made more holy, made to truly be a better person because of the Lord of all things. The most faithful friend, strongest Guardian, and the greatest inspiration I have to be out in the world as a servant. I pray now, that God would focus me on what He desires for me and in this community and world, and keep me from being caught up in so many other people's agendas. I never realized how difficult that was, but I know the One who has the power over death and hell, the power to save me, also can empower me with his boldness and strength of heart and mind. Let us serve the Lord together at all times-- in wedding or in deployment, marriage or singleness. Amen.
Oh yeah, and it absolutely doesn't seem like this week is the week for Thanksgiving! I mean, it's the first week in Advent on Sunday and as much work that we have done to prepare for it, it has STILL snuck up on me! YAY Christmas music; YAY another month that will go by quickly and yet be completely full and enjoyable! YAY for another moment closer to being married. Praise the Lord!
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