From The Inside Out

I am teaching the congregation the song "From The Inside Out". It's old to me, but so new to them. So new in concept, it really is a powerful song...

A thousand times I've failed, still your mercy remains,

and should I stumble again, I'm caught in your grace...

This is how I feel right now. Really, just very inadequate for this job I've been given. Of course God would speak to me through the songs I chose for the congregation to hear God speaking to them... AH! SO IRONIC! GOD! I don't know why, but I didn't expect it. Like I thought God had done his work in me through this song and it was my job to share it with others, not thinking that God would speak to me as well, again. He never stops, you know.

Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades,

Never ending, your glory goes beyond all fame.

I love that we praise in the midst of our struggles and trials, even when they are within ourselves.

Your will above all else, my purpose remains

My purpose in life is to act on God's guiding, God's leading. I love God so much, he has changed the outcome of my life/death, He has provided and loved me, and God has filled me with His glory... I have no other desires than for God's will to be done.

The art of losing myself in bringing you praise.

This is so... ironic, and just real to me. Losing MYSELF, though I want to be surrendered to God, though I am... my job, my life, my LOVE is to bring God praise. I fail so often in doing this, in surrendering whilst on stage... Maybe that's what is lacking in my heart. I work all week to bring people into the presence of God, but I don't let my own self surrender to God's presence when the Holy Spirit comes! We will be doing that this week, Lord willing!

In my heart and my soul, Lord I give you control. Consume me from the inside out.

Such an easy prayer. It's already there, laid out for my heart to sing.

Let justice and praise become my embrace...

Let's see, what does this actually mean? Justice... for God's people, for the world, the justice that God brought about through Jesus, even though-- it wasn't "fair" by any means. We don't get what we deserve, but that is how God's justice works! You look into the world, and you see poverty, destitution, trafficking, and you KNOW that this is not what they deserve. They deserve to know the love of God.

to love you from the inside out.

Completely. Lord, love you completely. to not be caught up in the production, but to love you Lord. And when I have to be thinking of the production in order to facilitate others in your worship, Lord let my heart be pure and your love glorified in me.

Amen. :)