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"Jesus, Your name is power, breath, and living water. Such a marvelous mystery!"
Truly... "holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come." Revelation 4:8ish
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I've decided to have one continuous blog for each day I type.
Today began very early for no apparent reason. I just wanted to get up early. I drank 32oz. of clean water and showered in clean water too.
Last night, I continued my reading in 1 Samuel, and made it to a chapter I know so well: 16. Here is the first verse:
The LORD said to Samuel, “How long will you mourn for Saul, since I have rejected him as king over Israel? Fill your horn with oil and be on your way; I am sending you to Jesse of Bethlehem. I have chosen one of his sons to be king.”
--- It seems as if this entire book up to this point is about trusting God. Hannah, who could not have children, trusted in God, and petitioned to have children and then gave her first child to God- Samuel was born, and thus the story was set into motion. When Samuel was old, and his perverted sons were judging Israel, the people did not trust in God as the ruler and king of their government (for while Samuel judged the people of Israel, God was truly Israel's King)<-- 8:7, and requested that their government be put in the hands of a mortal. Then came Saul. Saul seemed to have no problem being obedient when he knew he was nothing, but as God provided for victories against enemies and Saul's reputation and strength as a king grew, he began to do more and more of what he thought was right, instead of being obedient and trusting in God's timing... therefore, God was displeased with Saul, and began searching for someone who has a heart after His-- Enter, David. But Samuel didn't know the story that would unfold with God's newly anointed king, David. He didn't know the greater story that includes the salvation of all men that would give us, today, the ability to find true joy and contentment through knowing God more and more. Samuel was afraid of what the people would do when they found out that Saul had been rejected-- I mean he was scared that Saul would kill him if he found out! Samuel mourned so long that God had to correct him- this is reminiscent of the same kind of mourning we may do when we do not understand the purposes that God has in taking things away. We may be frightened to lose these things, or have loved them dearly, or whatever it is that causes us pain... But as in this story, there is a greater purpose- God's attributes are unchanging and true, and it is important that we seek to know him more clearly every day, which often includes the pains of stripping away the lens through which we view God, and have in turn, created our own gods. It is important that, as God's children, are obedient to Him, and rely on God's timing and trust God in all things. God's character is not different now than it was so long ago. Unchanging-he still asks us to trust in His timing and will. However, we still freak, like Saul, like Israel, and take matters into our own hands and our own will. That's where it seems to get messed up. I saw a little blurb about the Christian recording artist/song-writer Audrey Assad, where she declares that her mantra is to "Bloom where planted." So here I am, taking this new day to bloom, and to continue to lose my will for God's, my timing for God's. It's not easy, no it is not... but I think half of the battle is my own hazy vision of what *I* think I want from life... But how is a flower to know what its purpose is and where it should be planted?
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